Five months ago, I posted a video to YouTube. A few weeks later, I played it for my supervisor, who gave me some very good feedback. He suggested that I vary the sounds of it and put the voice nearer the end, in order to not give it away and consider doing something about the sameness of the video. He indicated that it was too short to be minimalist, but too unchanging to fill the entire duration.
So this is what I've been working on. And working on. And working on. Every change I make seems to make the video worse. Which is hardly encouraging. It's hard to work on for that reason. And also because I picked sounds for it that make me feel very nervous and edgy. And also because the subject matter makes me squirm.
It's not that it couldn't be better, it's that I can't seem to make it better.
The deadline is fast approaching for the Transgender Film Festival (indeed, if it is not already passed) and I've shown this video once to a small group and gotten some feedback from the YouTube posting. It seems to resonate well with women and gender minorities / queers. If straight men aren't moved by it as much, should I care? Or am I just annoyed because the changes I'm making are really not helping?
Can it still be part of my PhD if I can't repair it?
None of the composed music I've done in the last year has been especially engaging.